My Miracle: A Joyful Testimony by Katie Buckley

Mom and Baby


Life could not get any better than this! That was my view on life about three years ago. I had a beautiful 5-month-old baby girl named Grace. She was the light of our lives. My husband and I had a precious little starter home that felt so cozy to us. We were working hard to be debt free, and I had found myself fortunate enough to be able to stay at home full time. Life could not have been any sweeter.

Double the Love
Things began to change when sickness came over me one morning. I figured I must have gotten a stomach bug, but I soon realized that sick feeling felt a lot like morning sickness. Being a new mom, the feeling was fresh on my mind. Surely I could not be pregnant, I thought. How can you get pregnant when your baby is still a newborn?

A few days later, I made my way to the store and purchased a pregnancy test. Sure enough, it was positive! What a shock!! We were planners, and this was not planned. What would my husband say? What would my friends say? My mind was buzzing with questions.

Later that evening, I told my husband the news. I was surprised to hear him say, “The more the merrier.” Mark was excited, but he was not the one who would have to stay home all day and manage life with two babies. My emotions were all over the place. I knew there was no way I was prepared to do it again.

One day I was doing laundry and watching Grace playing, and I thought to myself, if I love Grace this much, how great would it be to have doubled that love in this house? I knew then what my husband had known for awhile. Our house would be more exciting with double the amount of love.

Heartbreak & Anger
Later that same day, I made my way to my doctor’s office because I had begun to experience bleeding. It was confirmed the next day that I had in fact lost the baby. Complete and utter heartache overtook our home. My husband and parents cried and mourned the loss of the baby. I, too, cried but was more angry than sad. I had never been angry at God. But I was angry now. How could God give me this surprise baby, help me adjust to the idea of having two babies to care for, and then take the baby away from me? My mind just could not wrap around all these emotions.

A few days passed, and I could feel myself growing more and more upset. My friends took me out to lunch and tried to comfort me with encouraging words, but I felt as if I was in a fog.

The Miracle
One night as I lay in bed, I cried out to God and prayed, Ok, God … Your Word says you want us to bring everything to You in prayer. I am hurt that I have lost this baby. My deepest desire is for You to give me back the baby I have lost. I do not want a new baby or a different pregnancy. I want the baby I have lost.

With those words, I ended my prayer and fell asleep.

The next morning I was due for a check-up with my doctor. He wanted to make sure my body was taking care of the miscarriage. As I lay on the crinkly paper, my ears were filled with the swooshing sound of a heartbeat. As the ultrasound technician turned the screen toward my face, I found myself staring at a baby with a strong heartbeat. The doctor was called in immediately, and it was confirmed that the baby I had “lost” days earlier was actually still there and alive!

The next few days were filled with tears of joy, exciting phone calls, and prayers of thanksgiving. God had chosen to work a miracle. We will never know all the reasons why God does what He does, But I do know that God used this experience to teach me several things. I am always to bring my worries and cares to Him.

  • God knew I was hurting at the loss of a baby, and He desired for me to share that with Him. He is a God who desires to have a relationship with me.
  • I also learned that my children are God-breathed. Getting to be their mom is a privilege and honor ordained by God.
  • Daily, I pray that God will remind me that I should love them with the love He has given me. My love for my children does not come from me, because that would be a love that comes from selfish and failing ways. By loving God first in all I do, I am able to love my children with God’s love and grace.

This type of love is perfect and pleasing to our Heavenly Father.

Praise be to the Lord of miracles!

Thank you, Katie, for this beautiful testimony.

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  1. Thank you for sharing your story and the three lessons, which I think will help me. We lost three babies before having our son and are now expecting another little boy.

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