29 weeks pregnant
I have a confession to make. I am scared about becoming a mom.
Yes, I just admitted that to the World Wide Web. Some of my fears are actually very real. Others, I confess, are some of the most irrational things that could possibly come to mind. Yet, as I am walking through this journey of my first pregnancy, the unknowns of the life-change, not to mention the reality of the life I am carrying, bring me anxiety.
I don’t think I am alone, though. Pregnancies are each very different. Some are met with no complications while others bring about hardship and pain. Though the situations are completely different, I think moms all share some of the same anxieties. As women, we want to be good moms. As Christian women, we want to raise our children to love the Lord above all else. For me, this is one of my biggest prayer requests – that my daughter will grow to be a servant of God.
Here are a few things I can rest on when I become anxious:
- God gave me this precious child. I can always cry out to Him when I am overwhelmed and exhausted and when I’m full of joy and happiness.
- Every mom, at one time, was a first-time mom. And they survived!
- It’s okay to ask for help. I’ve got a support system that is beyond willing to pray with me, listen to me, and walk with me.
- Salvation rests in God alone. My job is not to save my daughter as she grows up. I am here to plant seeds and foster her spiritual growth. God will take care of the rest.
So, on nights when I can’t sleep (which seem to be happening more often!), I will spend that time just talking to God … and to my little one. On days when I feel overwhelmed, I will pause and know He is in control. While I think some anxiety is normal, I will not let it rob me of the joy these last 10 weeks or so of pregnancy will bring!
Becky Suggs and her husband, Robert, live in the mountains of Glorieta, New Mexico, with their pug, Sadie. They are expecting their first child in April. In her spare time, you can find Becky reading, enjoying the great outdoors, filling in squares to the latest crossword puzzle, and spending time with family. She has a passion for both kids and camping ministries.